it might just all be a facade

Friday, September 18, 2009;

♥ 9/18/2009 03:59:00 PM

Like a papercut, the pain grows worse>>

Too many things to be done, too many tasks to be completed.
Too many responsibilites dumped onto the shoulders, too many expectations to meet up to.
Too demanding, too suffocating.
As sadistic as the following statement might sound, these exact words do come from me!
Sometimes, i do feel a tinge of satisfaction from being challenged about having tasked with so many stuff, and what not. Challenged, physically and mentally challenged. (:
Yeah sure, not being able to meet the expectations stinks. It's like having the sky falls down on you, suffocating you even further. Or it's like, pushing you down into the sand, face flat, then you cant breathe.

10450.) Reading most of these secrets, I realize they are true for me too. And
then I realize I want to say them, but can't.

Internet surfing during office hours (when i finished the work at hand) really allows me to chance upon awesome websites. (:
Getting wordy. Gahh.

Finally caught up with sawrah and manda ytd! :D

Rmbr the picnic, study tgt sessions, and whats not! ((: More HTHTs!
Well, we might be changing, but i will still love you girls! (:
Stay this close and funny, alrights? :D

If you don't like something, change it.
If you can't change it, change the way you think about it.
-Mary Engelbreit

It's scary to see someone changing into somebody else, who you dk.
What's worse, seeing yourself change into a stranger. :\

Labels: sec sch girls, suffocated, why is everything changing? ):

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Saturday, August 08, 2009;

♥ 8/08/2009 11:00:00 PM

This is my now>>

Sometimes, we tend to greed too much. Too much for comfort.
We want to stay in our own lil' cosy comfort zones, yet still want to move ahead in life.
To elaborate, it means we want to keep moving on in life, trying to embrace &overcome the various challenges that lies in our life. Instead of just staying stagnant, &waiting to breed moquitoes.
Yet on the other hand, we dwant things to change too much. We greedily want people to remain there &stay the way they were before. We selfishly expect people to think in our shoes, &act the way we want.
Hokay, in short, we want ourselves to move ahead in life, while we expect other people to stay stagnant, just for us.
Well, obviously this isn't how things go.
Time past. People move on. People change.

We can't stop this trend, in fact, i think we're contributing to it (someway, or another).

Oh, school started alr.
School term always start off the same for me. Then end off the same way too, the bad way. Maybe it's time to make a different ending. So that i can spare myself the agony &disappointment at the end of this route. Agree?

I'm sorry to hear what happened. I hope you'll be happy there.
Rest In Peace, dear friend.

Labels: why is everything changing? ):

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008;

♥ 1/23/2008 06:35:00 AM

Please dont turn your back
I cant believe
It's hard just to talk to you
But you dont understand>>

Changed my blogskin! (:
And i think it's so pretty. :D
Dont you think so?

Mm, i've been trying. Hard.
To be happy, and joyful. To be full of smiles, and appear as though my life is bursting with joy and fun, laughter and peace.
Really, i've been trying hard.
What y'know what hurts you the most?
It's when reality slaps you back, hard across the face. And you feel as though youve been pulled away from your make-believe world, into this cruel world of reality. ):
No, i can deny that i've friends around me. In fact, i have few of the bestest classmates you can ever have. They always seem to be so fun to hang around with, and i love their company! I've friends, whom i look forward to seeing, and saying hi/bye to, when walking to/fro classes.
But the thing is, isit all just superficial?

In the midst of forging all these new friendships, learning to get to know more people, and just living day by day, friendships which i really treasure seem to slip through my hands.
And i tell you, it really sucks. ):
I can no longer think of names whom i can really call and talk to, whom i wanna hang around with 24/7 without feeling bored, who is able to understand me so well when i didnt even breathe a word.
I mean, what's wrong? ): I used to have really close friends. And sometimes, they even understand me better than i do, myself.
Is it true, that everything's changing and moving and a too fast speed, which i simply cannot catch up?
Or is it just me? Who's still stubborn, refusing to move an inch away from the starting point?

Now, even talking alone seems like a chore and an impossible task. Let alone say, hang around tgt. ):

Labels: why is everything changing? ):

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.